So I have been pushing down and hiding a side of me for a long time. I feel I have taught myself to be masculine. I did this by reading and understanding male characters. By watching TV and movies. It wasn't easy but something I gradually came to be good at. What I thought society expected of me to be. A MAN.
see the problem was is I'm not a man. I can act and pretend all day. But what I am is not masculine.
I am feminine inside and out. I have stopped hiding it. Why should I? I am no longer worried about what others think or say. They don't dictate who I am or what I am. I do that.
I have casually started to sit differently. Move differently. My mannerisms are becoming more of how I know I am.
Being me is awesome.