Friday, June 10, 2016
It's My Life, My style.
So I'm out today and someone who doesn't know me or had never met me overhead a conversation between me and someone else. Yes the conversation was about me transitioning and going by a different name. Yes it was about me dressing. Well this individual took it upon himself to start telling me my fashion sense was wrong. I'm in cargo shorts, a Green Lantern shirt, and a headband with a green bow on it. The cargo shorts are a greenish color commoflage. I'm way beyond comfortable. Also I'm on my skateboard. First words out of his mouth were you don't match. Uuuummm i dressed for me not to impress anyone. Then he says I need to grow up and not wear comic book shirts. I'm a comic book geek. That won't stop. Then tells me that if I'm a woman I'd have better taste. That I need to figure out who I am or not be anyone at all. I'm a punk rock loving, skateboarding, comic geek, Jean and t-shirts kinda girl. I know women who were born women that like those things. Why can't I be that as a trans woman? I can be. I'm me. It's not the judging my style that really got me. It's the I need to figure out who I am or be Noone at all comment that got me. It has taken me years, and I mean years to be happy and accepting of who I am. I love me today. The old me he's gone. I'm Maddison. I didn't even think twice about that. But someone got to me today in a way I wasn't expecting. Can't I keep liking all the things I liked before and still like them as me. An awesome woman. It's my body, my style, my choice of how I look. I'm just trying to find my place.